Drowsy

o...i ran out of stuff to talk about today...sleeping in the middle of the day causes drowsiness...

Oprah is Mistaken

I found a wonderful lesson in this sitcom, Reba, last night. If you know anything about the show, or if you don't, let me fill you in. Reba had to get a job recently to sustain her 3 children, son-in-law, and 1 grandchild who all live in her house. She has been a stay at home mom for a very long time and is divorced. Her ex-husband, Brock, lives next door with his new wife, Barbara Jean. Reba hates Barbara Jean, but for some reason, Barbara Jean loves Reba and Brock and his new wife are just as much in Reba's life as when she was married to Brock. When Reba couldn't find a job because of her lack of experience, she got Brock to let her work at his dental office as a secretary. Barbara Jean is also a secretary and Reba planned to quit but then Brock explained that if Reba learned from Barbara Jean, Barbara Jean would leave because she would have found a replacement. Once this occurs, Reba's babysitter 'gets a bad case of old' and Barbara Jean steps in to become the very cheerful new babysitter of Reba's 2 youngest children, Jake and Kyra. Reba finds this more and more appealing as Barbara Jean cooks delicious dinners, does dishes, laundry, and acts basically like a wife for Reba's family. As Reba becomes more and more attached to Barbara Jean, Jake calls her mommy instead of Reba and she decides that she no longer wants Barbara Jean to babysit. This leads to a lot of trouble for Reba as she cannot find another babysitter.

This made me think about why she would go to such lengths, even putting her job in jeopardy just so that Barbara Jean would stop babysitting Jake and Kyra.

This morning, Granny showed me this video that was on the Oprah show, talking about her religion and how she ended up looking for a new religion. She was in church and the preacher was talking about how great God is and then when he said "Thy God is a jealous God," Oprah apparently came to believe that that meant that God is jealous of US. That he is insecure in his Godliness and wants to be us. She is mistaken!! So, I found that the situation on Reba could be applied to our God.

Like Reba, our God is jealous when we put other things before Him. A mother becomes very jealous whenever their child calls someone else mommy. She worked hard for 9 months carrying, feeding, and being the life line of that child. When the child was born, she fed it, clothed it, changed it's diaper. She deserves the title, Mommy. She deserves to be treated with respect and given attention as the Mother, not some other person who did not do all that!

God is like that. God meticulously put us together. He hand-crafted each of us individually, spent special time on each of us. I was made totally different than anyone else EVER. God did that. Doesn't he deserve the respect and attention that entails?! If I were to, like Oprah, put myself in the position of my Savior. Heaven is my consciousness. I am the reason I become successful. I am the way to be saved from hell. I am the reason I am who I am.

If you had created something and knew YOU were the reason for the way they are, you were the creator, and then they decided that you had not created them. They created themselves. You don't exist. Wouldn't you be mad? Wouldn't you be jealous?! I mean, YOU KNOW YOU MADE THEM!! YOU KNOW THEY EXIST BECAUSE OF YOU!! But they refuse to believe that. I'd be jealous of whatever they decided had created them, too. That is how God is jealous.

commerce excitement

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I praise GOD for my Granny. She should be paid about $60,000,000 a year for all she does. And she's so generous. I would be sooooooo in bad shape without her to remind me to take meds, make me food, wait on me hand and foot. Man, am I spoiled here at home. And what is really crazy is that I know that when I move back to Commerce, I'm gonna lose weight cuz i'm not gonna have as much food there.

News from my couch

I really really really miss all my Commerce/HC buddies. It is amazing how such close friendships can be made in just one year, especially with my Honors College friends. The HC advertises a family sort of environment...and I have to say, I can feel it. It really is like I've been away from my family for several months. MAN I HAVE MISSED COMMERCE!!! BUT, only 2 days! the countdown continues...as we near move in day. I am so excited.

IN OTHER NEWS!! :P
I am on day 5 of wisdom teeth removal recovery! I am proud to say that I can chew pretty well now. Still staying away from hard foods. Yesterday when Colin and I went to Northpark mall...and Barnes & Noble...and Half-priced Books...I ate Chickfila! It was hard. I got 4 nuggets down and some waffle fries. They were delicious, but difficult. It's not the chewing that's hard, its not using the teeth I'm used to chewing with thats the difficult part. I also got some cheesecake and since that requires basically no chewing at all, it was delicious and easy to eat!! Yay for cheesecake!! Also, it has been brought to my attention that I am not eating at all enough ice cream for someone recovering from getting my wisdom teeth pulled and that I should, in fact, be eating much much more. I will try to rectify this as much as possible...BUT may I AGAIN remind said informer that I am lactose-intolerant...so eating more ice cream may or may not happen. DORK!! ♥

AND my little brother is coming home from visiting our mother in Colorado! Please pray that his trip will be safe. I get to see him THURSDAY!! WOOT! so excited! ♥ i love my bubba. :)

Who needs food? I have God.

You know, I gotta say, I probably won't eat much in heaven.

Let me explain.

I was always taught that when we get to heaven, we'll be worshiping God forever. We can eat, though we won't have to.

After contemplating food as a non-necessity, I think eating is pretty trivial actually. Although it's tasty, I don't think it'd be that important to me if I didn't need it. Especially after thinking about going just a day without food, thinking, "What if I didn't need this to survive?" it then makes me think about everything I put in my mouth and just that meditation on not needing food helps me realize that that verse is true. Man cannot live on bread alone. God's grace is much more important. I don't need food for anything more than just to keep this fragile body going. Besides communion, since I've been meditating this idea of no food, I haven't found any kind of food all that important.

I have decided that communion is important. It reminds us of God's sacrifice. Jesus' sacrifice. Am I using this amazing gift wisely? He let His son be killed. For me. Me. I'm not worth that. I'm not even worthy to be offered an alternative to hell. I should burn for eternity, but God's compassion and mercy are so great that He wants me to live even though I don't deserve it. Because communion reminds me of this totally incredible gift, one I don't deserve. No other food reminds me of this like communion does.

So...no food? That's okay. I don't need it. I need God's love. His presence in my life. Thats it.

Grace to You & Peace.

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By the way, I need email addresses of those of you who would like to continue reading my blog on a regular basis. I'm going to make this page private soon, so I need email addresses to make sure you are able to read my blog if you want. Also, if you have a blog page, I'd love to read it too!! send me your link!!!
Thanks!!

Grace to You & Peace

Major Surgery goes well...PRAISE JESUS!!!

How exciting!!! I got my wisdom teeth removed this morning thanks to an amazing God who is miraculous. At the last minute, the insurance company got their act together and said they'd pay their share. Not typical, but wonderful!! Prayer works! PRAISE JESUS! Everything went well. I've never had surgery before...it was interesting.

So, we go into the Dr.'s office and i start talkin' a blue streak cuz I'm kinda nervous...we met this nice lady in the waiting room who said that she got her teeth taken out without being knocked out so she got hers done in the hospital and even then, she said she didn't feel any pain. That put me at ease a little. So, then I got called back and had to sign all these papers. I think I was a little obnoxious cuz i read it all out loud. Trying to calm my nerves, when actually my blood pressure was pretty low. (it was around 63 ish while i was doing the paperwork) But, when the doc started feeling around my arm for a vein it shot up to around 100...lol. Anyway, they stuck me with the anesthetic needle in my arm n it was the weirdest feeling.

I started talking to this girl on my other side, trying to distract myself. Her name was Leslie and she went to Collin County Community College. I told here that I'm at Texas A&M University-Commerce, but as I told her this, i felt in the back of my head this dark heaviness. Like a fog slowly creeping through my brain. I don't really remember much else. lol. But while I was under, I had this kinda dreamish thing...it was a lot like Fantasia. You know, the first part where its just shapes moving to the music...there was no music, but these red shapes moved around for a while.

When I woke up...you ready for this?...I couldn't stop laughing. I remember laughing when my conscious mind clicked in, but apparently the instant they took the anesthetic out, I started laughing like crazy. Couldn't stop. Everything just seemed so funny!

Right before they knocked me out, though, as the lady left the room to get the doctor, she asked me a question which struck me as funny...she asked me, "Do you want to keep your teeth?" The first thing that popped into my head was...'isn't that why i'm here? to get them out? of course i don't want to keep any in there!' but then i realized what she meant and now I have 4 huge teeth in a toothpick container. They really are big. Each one is about the size of my thumbnail. No wonder it was so painful while they were in there! i now have a lot more room in my mouth! Anyway, I'm bringing them to Commerce with me, so if anyone would like to see my lovely teeth...you are more than welcome to!! :D

Anyway, at the moment, I'm feeling great. Swelling's gone down in my tongue and almost everything has stopped being numb...except my bottom lip. Granny says I don't look like anything's wrong with me. My appetite hasn't been hindered either...I'm on my fourth baked potato(mashed so i don't have to chew). No nausea, feel fine. Praise the Lord.

Thanks for your prayers!! ♥

Grace to You & Peace

Spaghetti on sitting in the Silence

MAN, God is good. Yesterday I stayed home from morning church. I haven't done that in forever...well, although I figured it would make me feel drained, it was awesome. I got to just be STILL. So often today, we forget to do that. It is a command. Be still and know that I AM God. Either we forget or we decide that it is not required. Times have changed, there's not time for silence. Practically no such thing anymore...I wish everyone could experience silence with God. Its like that story in the Old Testament...how God told Abraham (wasn't it?) to go up to the mountains and a storm came and a fire and an earthquake but God wasn't in any of that. God was in the whisper of silence after all that. He's in the SILENCE!!! so, i got to sit in the Silence yesterday. The presence of God. In baggy pants and a t-shirt. In all my sin. In all my worry. I got to feel God with no distractions. It was so awesome. I love my Jesus.

Also, in my time with God, I got to get in some much needed prayer for my surgery tomorrow. I'm supposed to get all 4 wisdom teeth out. BUT, the problem is that my insurance has been acting squirrelly and they said since I turned 19 I'm no longer covered. WRONG!! So without insurance, the surgery'd cost upwards of $1800...and I absolutely do not have even a percentage of that. So, unless the insurance people get their act together by tomorrow, I have to postpone the surgery even though there really isn't a better time to get it done, since I move back to Commerce in 8 days. So, that was where my worry was coming from! God gave me a beautiful hymn in my time of most worry too...Only Trust Him. MAN!!! I say again. GOD IS GOOD!! It's so crazy how he works.

On a side note, Colin came over last Friday and we did the coolest thing ever. The HIGHLIGHT of my summer. We built a fort in my living room out of tables, chairs, and sheets and we colored. I got this Hello Kitty coloring book to color in while I'm recovering from surgery and while I was getting it, Colin got a Batman coloring book. So, we colored. And then we took a nap. And we were 6 years old again! haha! It rocked. It was so nice just to kick back and relax. Anyway, there's my update, back to work!

Grace to You & Peace.

Out one day...

So, I'm new to this blogging experience. Dunno how well its gonna go...but i think it shall be interesting. I'm gonna keep this first one short. Just puttin my feelers in...I shall start with the nitty gritty later.